Today I resigned from a job I’ve held and loved for 5 years. It was one of the most difficult decisions I’ve made, and considering the job market and the fact that we have two children in college, perhaps a bit rash.
Why did I do it? Because at some point, you have to consider the happiness factor. While I loved my job, I was no longer happy. I felt like I was no longer effective at what I did. I felt I could not keep up with the demands and expectations that were a constant everyday feeling.
You see, we took a life changing vacation a few months ago. I say life changing because it was the longest time away from everyday life I’ve ever taken. During that time, I did a lot of thinking, soul searching and reflection, and realized just how stressed I was everyday. of. my. life. Not just weekdays. The stress was encroaching on my downtime, family life, marriage and weekends. I spent my time away from the office worrying about what I didn’t do, forgot to do, have to do and might have done wrong. So much so that I started creating stress that wasn’t there. You may say, it’s all in your head, and you’d be right. But that’s stress, whether it’s in your head or in the existing moment.
When I returned to work after my vacation, more relaxed than I had been in years, the stress quickly returned, but it was magnified. My time away brought everything into the light, and made me realize that it was no longer working. So I gave notice.
What now? Well, this is one result of that what now. I’m also thinking that I would like to work freelance. I miss the flexibility of being my own boss and working remotely. I really enjoy marketing and social media, so that is where I will concentrate my efforts. If it works out, fantastic. If not, at least I tried.
That’s all we can do, right?
(image: my trip to Versailles)